running up that hill....

Be running up that road,

Be running up that hill,

Be running up that building,

Say, if I only could, oh...

~Kate Bush

So last night sucked. It was HARD. WAY harder than Race for the Cure. It was hot as hell and the course was hilly and, have I mentioned it was hot? I wanted to quit so many times. I wanted to cut a corner and finish sooner. I wanted to stop in the middle and just be done so I didn't have to keep walking/trudging because what I was doing was WAY closer to trudging than running.

I am sure there were a ton of people looking at me thinking "what the hell is she doing?" but every time I do this...ok, the 2 times I've done this it definitely inspires me to take better care of myself and do better because I don't want that to be that hard. I want to do this one again next year and not finish the last hill and turn and be completely sure I was going to pass out (because for about 1 minute there, I thought I was going down) - I want to RUN more of this than I walk.

It's interesting because there were times during this my body was totally cooperating and I was running and it felt great -- it felt amazingly freeing and powerful to just run like that but then there were times with my body was like "yo lady, pipe down up there, you are carrying about 50 pounds more than I'm comfortable carrying, don't forget that" and those moments SUCKED! But I can keep working at this and keep trying to do better. Training for this half marathon is going to kick my butt but it's going to really push me forward. Mostly I just don't want to feel as bad at the end of the half marathon as I felt last night.

Then again, no matter how bad I felt or looked -- I had a very cute guy bring me water, beers and hot dogs -- what could be so bad about that?

girl i'm gonna make you sweat....

or the song goes something like that?

who knows and who cares.

i'm doing another 5k this evening and it's going to be a sweat-tastic sweatfest of sweating. good times.

94 degree with 32890438290482309% humidity.

at least i'm drinking buckets of water now, right?

i guess that's why they call it the blues....

Man, I am in a bad mood today.

Not really sure what that’s about – I don’t often tend to be in “bad” moods – sad, stressy, worried? Sure. Bad? Not often but I am today.

Doesn’t make a lot of sense because I got a good night of sleep last night which is often a trigger for a bad day to follow.

Work is really busy right now and kind of frustrating – which is part of why I am SO excited to get the coaching thing moving. I have tried to see if I can get it reimbursed by my company so that’d be fantastic.

Tonight Meredith and I are going walking (weather permitting) and then to lay out our training plan for the distance run – maybe an evening with Meredith will help me mood – it usually does.

I need a vacation though – BADLY. I could go to SF and wine country with my mom and her friends over Labour Day weekend this year but I’m not sure I want to do that. I mean I do but I’m not sure the funds will work out. I do want to go to Nova Scotia at some point this fall – plus I got a thing from Marriott today to go to St. Thomas for a week for $299! That’s quite tempting too but won’t happen.

I think I’m bothered by the limbo – being at the start of so many great things but not fully engaged in them yet. But maybe I’m supposed to enjoy the limbo instead of cursing it.

at what point do we call someone crazy?

People throw the term "crazy" around a lot. People describe other people as crazy way too much - but right now I'm feeling a bit like a crazy person.

Last week I was posting on a message board with a bunch of friends and some were encouraging me to come to Maui to run the Maui Marathon on 9/16 -- and as appealing as being in Maui sounds...

1. running a marathon is a BIT unrealistic
2. I don't really have to cashola to go to Hawaii
3. have i mentioned running a marathon is a bit unrealistic?

But it did make me start to think -- what other race could I run on 9/16 to join my friends in solidarity - plus 9/16 is 6 months to 35 and since I've decided that my 35th birthday will be infinitely better than my 34th -- it seems fitting.

So after some searching and some suggestions by friends....

I'm going to do the Philadelphia Distance Run.

It's a half marathon.

For those of you playing at home, that is 13.1 miles. I have to finish it in less than 4 hours which makes it very possible. Meredith had brought the idea up to me a few weeks ago and I basically ignored it but we're going to do this. I need to register for it. Tuesday Meredith and I are going to put together a training schedule.

I'm going to run a half marathon.

That, my friends, makes me crazy.