It's always a Steve song....

Ok -- I admit it. I look psychotic in that picture. I look so completely out of my head that I am about to split out of my own skin. Which is appropriate because that was how I felt. This picture was taken December 3, 2005 in Sewell, NJ at the BNL Christmas show. Charlie and I went and had a total blast. We got there super early because we had no idea how long it would take to get there and as a result we had the good fortune of being there when the band came out to sign autographs and take photos. I was so chicken to go talk to Steve but Charlie dragged me and once I got up there with him, I was nervous and babbling but not the completely silent star struck freak I figured I'd be. It was fun and a great show.

That was 11 months ago and it seems like light years ago. I'm going to see BNL Thursday night with Micki and Sarah and Kevin -- first time I have seen BNL without Charlie. He was the one who really got me into them -- saw them for the first time on a trip to LA when he found tickets on Ebay for us -- something I would never have done on my own but we wound up having a fantastic little vacation. That was about 3 years ago this time. Again, light years.

But the point of this post -- it is always a Steve song...for many, Ed is the hotty of the band and while I shall not deny he is one good looking man -- for me, it is Steve. The rest of the guys could all but disappear and it'd still be great. Hey, when we saw him solo in Toronto, he was great - even doing BNL songs! Ed writes the silly songs, Steve writes the powerful songs and he has the vocal chops to back it up. It isn't surprising that my favorite song on damn near every album is a Steve song....

Gordon - "What A Good Boy"
Maybe You Should Drive - "Everything Old is New Again"
Born on a Pirate Ship - "Break Your Heart"
Stunt - "Call And Answer"
Maroon - "Conventioneers"
Everything to Everyone - "War on Drugs"
BLAM - "Maybe You're Right"


Maybe You're Right

It was often talked about
It was often raised
But nothing was ever done about it
To hear the way they talked about it
Noone could be saved
But nothing was ever done about it

Shall I take back everything I've ever said
And live my whole life in silence instead?

It was oversimplified
It was underthought
And nothing was ever done to stop it
Everything was fortified by
All the lies we bought
And nothing was ever done to stop it

Shall I take back everything I've ever said
And live my whole life in silence instead?

Shall I take back everything I've ever said
(Shall I take back all my attacks? All of my accusations?)
And live my whole life in silence instead?
(All my mistrust - we never discussed anyone's reservations)


There was a time
When a crime was a crime
Now I think I'm losing my mind
Or taking it all too hard
Taking it all too hard
Taking it all too hard

Shall I take back all my attacks? All of my accusations?
All my mistrust - we never discussed anyone's reservations

Shall I take back everything I've ever said
(Shall I take back all my attacks? All of my accusations?)
And live my whole life in silence instead?
(All my mistrust - we never discussed anyone's reservations)

Shall I take back everything I've ever said
(Shall I take back all my attacks? All of my accusations?)
And live my whole life in silence instead?
(All my mistrust - we never discussed anyone's reservations)

Maybe you're right
Maybe you're right
Maybe you're right
But I don't think so
Maybe you're right
Maybe you're right
Maybe you're right
But I don't think so

Am I ever going to get this going?

I keep thinking I should be a blogger and what do I do about it? Nothing. But I'm gonna try to change that again.

2006 has been a HUGE year of change for me. Pretty much if you can name it, I changed it.

I'm mere moments from being officially divorced.

I changed jobs -- twice and am much happier where I am

I live alone.

I went on more bad dates this summer than a girl can shake a stick at.

I've met a totally great guy.

I said at the beginning of the breakup of my marriage that I wanted to fast forward just to know the end of the movie -- I didn't mind going back and going through it all but I wanted to go forward and just see how it ended -- the suspense was killing me.

On some level, I feel that more now than ever. I am dying to know where I end up. I know I will end up happy and fulfilled -- I simply won't allow it to end up any other way but I'm just so very curious as to what that is going to look like!